thanks fla1976, i know your right but its so hard.i went to see him tue.he looks bad. but hes still here.its really making me face my own death which aint too far off.i have really started to think about how much i need people in my life now. glad i didnt run all of them off.lol i will be there foe him till the end.no matter how hard it is on me its got to be unbearable for his family