Harb, my original post was about my older sister. I deleted it before I posted it because I didn't want to take away from your sister. It looks like this has really turned out as a good thread to let everybody talk about real family problems. I don't have time tonight to say much about my sister so I'll save it for later.
I can't describe how sad I feel for you. By that high school pic. this is not how it was meant to be for her.
Outlaw, please unwind a little. I don't have any idea what to say or what to tell you to do, but taking you own life is not the answer. There will be better days ahead.